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Daddy passed away at jan .16.. 2:45 pm..
he was my true father.. more of a father than my biological dad..

Ganito pala..

learning a lot from my her =) we are getting better at this as the days go by..

1123=) 3:34 =)

wednesday.. november 23,2005.. at 3:34 am.. It all changed
a little bit of doubt and fear accompanied by great joy and relief..
all out.. the goal.. no regrets if ever..

Maxxokista! hahah! :(

ouch.. no words can describe this pain..


Hiling

Nahihirapan na ang aking isip
nauubusan na ng sasabihin sa iyo..
nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo sa 'kin..
giliw..

nalilito ako, nais kong sagipin ang ating
nalulunod na pag-ibig
nguni't handa akong palayain ka
kung ito ang 'yong hiling
gaano man kasakit sa akin
ibibgay sa yo
ang tanging pakiusap lang
wag mo akong kalimutan..

kay rami nang nagdaan
na pagsubok sa ting pag-ibig
kakayanin pa kayang mabawi pa
ang mga nasabi nang masasakit na salita..

kung ito ang yong hiling
gaano man kasakit sa akin..
ibibigay sa yo..

nanlalamig na bang pag-ibig mo?

You Remain.. My Power, My Pleasure, My Pain..

I never knew it could be so wonderful..
Never imagined how your emotions almost explode inside of you from total bliss and happiness..
Never pictured it would be discovered in a way most surprising..
But the painter painted a picture oh so bittersweet..

Never knew how much it would cost..
Never felt a pain so sharp, so deep..
How all will falters, all seems dark..

Nothing comes easy in this world..
When much is given, much is expected as well..
Nothing of true value, of great worth is easily attainable..

A twisted mix of joy and contentment, pain and sorrow..
But I would enjoy every once of it If she was with me : )

..

How many times did I pray you'll find me..

How many wishes in a star..

Revelations..

I have a hard head,bad temper and closed ear..

This usually gets me into trouble and misunderstandings..

But this week an instance showed me the rewards of patience and being able to listen and following..

I must keep my head cool, and listen to the suggestions of others if I am to be successful in life..

Sometimes we must first learn to follow before we are fit to lead..

Someone in my head.. Tormenting me.. singing.. A hale song.. Arrgg

Ugh.. rarely do I get sick.. I hate the feeling because I'm used to feeling healthy and hyper.. but this sunday I got hit pretty hard.. I did not even know if I could make it to the 2nd service.. It felt like my body was being pulled down to the ground and someone was in my head singing a hale song.. hehe.. I wanted to stay so bad and tried to weather the storm.. but at youth I knew I had to go.. and I was right cause if I had stayed I would have vomitted and collapsed.. hehehe gross.. on the way home I almost collapsed, good thing I took a cab (salamat sa 20 pesos fortune! sakto!) I estimated the cost and was right on the money.. got home and fell to the floor the sala.. "Micah.. I feel like crap.. give me medicine" haha!. got a physical and it turns out that I'm anemic and have a very low BP to match.. So now I'm pumping myself with multivitamins and Iron to help with that..hope I feel better.. don't want to miss sunday.. may tugtog pa ako sa YA with my blood brother pog

Damn.. should not have opened friendster..

I sometimes check all my friends at friendster.. u know.. view all of them from 1-Z.. and as I was scrolling around H.. I saw her again.. something felt strange inside me..a little angry.. a little sad.. but a simle appeared on my face.. I tell myself that she means nothing anymore.. that I don't feel anything.. but now I know for sure, there is no denying it.. I never got over that day in the classroom, running out and crying.. I never got over her.. maybe not in love anymore but I have not found closure..